Not again!

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       Sometimes we experience some situations that might change us forever. We feel like nothing is ever going to be the same again. We are not who we used to be anymore. We start blaming ourselves for everything that has happen and we eventually hate ourselves. At that point we want to go back to the way thing were because we feel that we have lost ourselves. After we finally manage to kind of go back to that, we promise that we will never accuse ourselves of being worthless and guilty of all the bad things in the world.

     But then it happens again. We fell guilty again. We start crying and wondering why. Why did it happen again and why do we feel that we are the ones to blame? Why are we back to the bottom? Why can’t we change? Why? Then we decide that we can only try again to gain some confidence and be happy. We manage to do that and things are better.

     But it happens again and again and again. We feel stuck in the same situation over and over again and no matter how much we try, we always go back to the starting point.

     That’s when we realise that all this time we were trying to find ourselves when we didn’t even know who we were. We decide that we are done feeling sorry for ourselves. We are done crying. We are free people who can explore the world anytime we want. We won’t always be stuck in the same situation. Not again!

P.S: It’s ok to feel that way. IT GET BETTER!!!

Amalia Boura